Late Night Thoughts

There's something about the night sky that really allows me to put things in perspective in ways that nothing/no one else really can. Even though I am in LA, a major US city, it is still possible to the moon and some stars, no where near as bright or as many as I can when I'm home or at IC but still there's something about it that just so calming, peaceful and makes everything that's happened throughout the day seem so trivial and unimportant.

I am currently sitting outside on the little balcony of my apartment, and realizing that there is almost no way I would be doing this at IC at this time of night. But I'm not at IC I'm in LA, nearly 3,000 miles away on the other side of the country. God has me out here for a reason, he has something for me to do, something for me to learn either about myself, people around me, the media industry... who knows! But I'm here and that's the important thing.

At times though being in LA doesn't seem real. Although I've been out here for about 2 1/2 weeks, I still sort of feel like I'm on vacation, that at some point I'll either wake up back home in NJ a week before having to head back to Ithaca for the Spring Semester, and this whole thing will have been a dream, or the ICLA group that I'm out here with will all get on a plane and head back to IC and everything that happened out here was just a test, and everything will go back to how it would be if we hadn't come out here.

A part of me will be home sick the entire time that I'm out here, in part because I'm not with all of my friends at IC, but a bigger part of my current homesicknes, I think, is due to Internship drama, I currently only have one on Thursday and Friday, and Classes on Tuesday, so I still have all Monday and Wednesday free and am trying to get another Internship for those two days.

I know that everything will work out in the end, it always does, God has a plan especially when we can't see it or figure out what exactly it is. But whatever the reason I'm here I'll figure it out at some point. But until then I guess I just have to muddle along and take things day by day.

Lost, Confused and Day-dreaming
Corinne